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Do You Want Real Closure? Start Being Honest With Yourself
“What I absolutely love about the body and mind, especially the subconscious, is that they always call us out on our lies.”
There are some experiences that will stay with us for years to come. Even if we feel like we’ve moved on, there are those rare moments while we are waiting to close our eyes to sleep, or at a random time during the day when we are reminded of what we went through in the past.
On a personal note, the real reason why I can’t get over some experiences is because there is a discrepancy of what I tolerate now versus what I tolerated back then. And I simply can’t move past the way I allowed some people to treat me.
Now this is a call for me to forgive myself for not honoring my space. I violated it by remaining quiet in the midst of being yelled at, not standing up for myself when someone disrespected me, or even allowing an abusive friend to overstay their welcome in my life.
I admit it; I let lots of things slide when I shouldn’t. I still have issues with speaking my mind without worrying about someone’s reaction. I am not that great at arguing, or even speaking for that matter. I express myself through writing, which isn’t accepted in a society that values being blunt and speaking your mind all the damn time. I live in a loud world that can’t shut up, and so I must navigate and cope in this lifetime as an identity that isn’t authentic to me.