He Tried To Violate Me To This Song, And I Didn’t Listen To It For Three Years

“It’s amazing how sound brings to light the memories we try to suppress. And I intentionally ignored my love for this song for such a long time. I was afraid of dealing with the man who gave me this terrible memory that I must live with forever; a memory he most likely forgot.”

“Do men actually believe their aggressive gestures are welcomed, or do you enjoy frightening women?”

These were the thoughts on my mind tonight as I decided to get over myself. I let the song play, and allowed any feelings that came up to wash all over me. I have been avoiding this experience for three years, and tonight I decided that enough was enough.

It’s amazing how sound brings to light the memories we try to suppress. And I intentionally ignored my love for this song for such a long time. I was afraid of dealing with the man who gave me this terrible memory that I must live with forever; a memory he most likely forgot.

I pressed play, and all sorts of feelings stung my body from different angles. I held myself in place and grounded myself as I began the cathartic experience of remembering.

“You are safe. You are safe,” I said to myself over and over again while Gregory Isaacs sang to me while I was alone in the darkness of my…