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Is Healthy Black Love Rare, Especially Between Two Dark Skinned People?
For the past week I’ve been thinking about my ex. Not only did I have an astral dream about him, but his birthday was this week.
When I broke things off with him I swore that I was not going to speak to him again, as I had no real reason to. I have the type of personality that once I move on from someone it’s a wrap. But something outside of my own logic and ability to ignore a person as if they never existed compelled me to shoot him a quick text message on his birthday. I am not sure what that ethereal something was or where it came from, but I believed my decision served me well. There were a few things I needed to get off my chest, and I couldn’t tell anyone how I was feeling except for him.
I am not sure what broke inside of me, but through tears I sent him the following message:
Happy Birthday. Um, I’m not sure why I’m telling you this but I had a dream about you the other day so I thought I would…tell you? I don’t know.
I’m not going to lie, I have very mixed feelings about you. I enjoyed “us.” I enjoyed spending time with you. You were one of the best things that happened to me. There are happy and loving memories of you that still linger in my mind.
