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Lost & Found: Embracing Maturity, Adventure, And Self-Actualization Through Getting Older
Living to see a few more birthdays changed everything around for the better!
While the world praises youth, and the vitality and energy that is supposed to accommodate us when we are young, dumb, and full of cum, I hated my younger years. I didn’t know who the fuck I was when I was younger. I didn’t know what I wanted. I couldn’t pinpoint what I truly deserved.
This inner confusion and turmoil showed up in my face. I suffered from severe acne, scars, blemishes, and breakouts. My self-hate revealed itself in the way I treated my body. I refused to exercise. I binged on all sorts of candy, chips, donuts, bagels, pizza, and ultra-processed food. My femininity was nonexistent. I was short-tempered and I got into a lot of arguments and fights because I was mad at the world. I had no sense of style and I wore baggy clothes to hide the same body I hated. My mind was cloudy, fatigued, and seriously depressed. My relationships reflected my need to please every damn body because I was seeking love in others that I couldn’t find in myself.