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On Breakups: The Loss That I Grieve The Most
The single biggest regret I have when it comes to dating is that I had sex within these relationships.
I mourn for my body that I willingly shared with another human being, in wild hopes that my vessel of flesh was my sacrifice to eventually become a part of a union that I knew was never going to last.
I have never felt as though sex was something I shared with anyone. To me, in any relationship my body always served as a keepsake that was taken along with the abrupt ending of what could have been, essentially leaving me empty.
Growing through the throes of womanhood, I have learned that I value my body too much to give it to anyone else. It is too sacred to be shared with someone who calls me the love of their life, or someone who will eventually rob from me once logic catches up with fleeting butterfly feelings. Which is always a minute too late.
This is when I have my doubts. When I am ready to move on. And attempt to take my body back.
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