Sex & Relationship Musings Through The Eyes Of A Demisexual

“The act of sex is more than just tips and tricks and feeling good. It is a dance. It is communication. It is safety in your partner’s arms. It is true intimacy. It is diving deep with your lover and exploring the depths of each other, together.”

“I crave an experience where my five senses and the full range of my emotions are present in this space.

If I have to hide from you then my soul has left my body.

Who is laying in your bed, then?

You are now fucking a corpse.”

-Sanni Lark

When it came to being a sexual being, I never felt like I fit in. There was always this nagging feeling in the back of my mind, like I didn’t belong anywhere. Everyone seemed to be enjoying their love lives and crave more and more play time while I did my best to avoid the activity altogether.

Because it just didn’t satisfy my soul. Sex felt like a chore more than anything, or something I am “supposed” to do. And it seemed like nobody related to me regarding my struggles. Like why did sex make me feel so damn empty, like there should be more to it but I couldn’t grasp what I needed? I am young, I am a woman. I am supposed to enjoy it, right?