Well, how much of this fantasy actually belongs to you? Is this something you’ve wanted before you were introduced to the concept of romance through the media and through “well-intentioned” family members and strangers?
I will never tell anyone they can’t have what they really want. Love is a valid and needed aspect of the human experience. But for the millions of women who desire romance with men it can be a very frustrating goal to reach, filled with scam artists, the manosphere, navigating “single” married men and men who don’t want anything exclusive and long-term, etc.
You must ask yourself if it’s really worth it.