Where Does Sexual Energy Flow When You Are Celibate?

“When I am by myself, whether dancing, writing, or just in elevated states of creativity and in tune with my femininity, my sexuality soars.

I am a feminine being: it turns me on to simply create.”

Last night my spirit was calling me to free up the frustrated energy in my body that was accumulating from my work and release it through movement. I ended up filming a few clips of my private dance practice and posted one online.

My ex and I happened to be chatting during my rehearsal and I decided to not be stingy for once and send him the video that I uploaded to social media. I wouldn’t call my ex a submissive per se, but he worships my distinctive feminine essence. Anything I do, even if I sneeze, just adds to the things he loves about me. And no, I am not kidding about the sneezing. One time I sneezed in his presence and he told me how much he loves the little noises I make.

How cute.

So while I am aware of this I still wasn’t prepared for his reaction when he watched me shaking my hips in a thong bikini, with my hips scantily covered with a scarf. He responded, “I didn’t know you move like that! It’s so hot! I can’t look away.”

I quickly shot back some laughing emojis his way. But then it dawned on me that in all the years that…